today is december 23rd and i've been thinking about you since yesterday. so much has happened in these last few days, so many things i would of liked to share with you.
i would of liked to see the look on your face, when i told you that your granddaughter was an engineer.. or make pictures in my mind of what it would feel like on graduation day, to know that you were sitting in the audience feeling proud of me.
i blocked this day out last year, and jumped from 22nd to 24th of december, but this year i cant. and i miss you.. just knowing that you're there, that you exist. and i just realized right now why i chose the career i chose, and why i like the things that i like.. because of you.
ever since i was little i admired how you could find the sense in everything, and make anything and everything work. how you could build anything. and i wanted to be just like you. i wanted to draw amazing plants, know how to design tools.. and most importantly, i've always worked to be someone that others look up to and respect; and that's what you were to me.
so many things that i've learned in books, that i would pay any price to practice with you.. and cant. i miss you more than i know, because at any random moment i'll think of you, and not be able to hold back everything that it makes me feel.. like right now.
i remember how your house would be filled with people on your big birthday parties, how everyone attended, no one ever missed it. you were always surrounded by hundreds of people that feel love, admiration and warmth towards you.
now i know that i always wanted to be just like you, im on the right track for some things.. but what i would give for your pats on the back, and with no words assuring me that what i am doing is right.
i would of liked to see the look on your face, when i told you that your granddaughter was an engineer.. or make pictures in my mind of what it would feel like on graduation day, to know that you were sitting in the audience feeling proud of me.
i blocked this day out last year, and jumped from 22nd to 24th of december, but this year i cant. and i miss you.. just knowing that you're there, that you exist. and i just realized right now why i chose the career i chose, and why i like the things that i like.. because of you.
ever since i was little i admired how you could find the sense in everything, and make anything and everything work. how you could build anything. and i wanted to be just like you. i wanted to draw amazing plants, know how to design tools.. and most importantly, i've always worked to be someone that others look up to and respect; and that's what you were to me.
so many things that i've learned in books, that i would pay any price to practice with you.. and cant. i miss you more than i know, because at any random moment i'll think of you, and not be able to hold back everything that it makes me feel.. like right now.
i remember how your house would be filled with people on your big birthday parties, how everyone attended, no one ever missed it. you were always surrounded by hundreds of people that feel love, admiration and warmth towards you.
now i know that i always wanted to be just like you, im on the right track for some things.. but what i would give for your pats on the back, and with no words assuring me that what i am doing is right.
