i realize.

i realized how much i love you when i learned that i would never make you do something just because i wanted you to. i realized i love you when i saw that in my options wasn't moving on. i realized how much i love you when everything that happens isn't as interesting if i can't share it with you. i realize how much i love you when i think that no holiday will be as special if i don't share it with you. i realize how much i love you when i miss the way you talk, breathe, laugh, think, sleep, look, smell, feel, a r e.

newskin

does time have mercy?

its only been about 12 hours and i already feel im going crazy, because i miss you.. and the fact that i know that i wont know from you as soon as right now, makes me miss you even more. i've been pretending to be strong, pretending to be ok but im not.. i miss you and im scared. im scared of time, its become my enemy.. we've parted ways and i dont know what to do now.. cuz its multiplied under my nose, and i know it will keep gaining up on me until it chokes me down.

can't i just go to sleep until forever? forever being what seems to me, the period of time that i will be away from you.

if i would of known it was going to be the last time i'd see you, i would of looked at you harder. if i would of known it was going to be the last time i'd touch you, i would of grabbed on tighter.. if i would of known it was going to be the last time i'd kiss you, i would of memorized every detail.. and if i would of known it was going to be my last chance, i would of told you that i love you, my forehead against yours, my heart beating fast and eyes closed, cuz i was baring out my soul.

and i guess it will be until that moment in time..

newskin.