i found you when i needed you the most, you taught me to see things with different eyes. revealing truth and lies, of things that would no longer subside. I'm learning to take you in, everyday has its new steps. I'm learning to open up to the possibility of a correct decision. things are far from ideal, and no where near standard.. but i guess this is what keeps me coming back to you.
I've tried to even it out, tried to think of things in a clear state of mind.. but everything always ends up blurred. clouds of uncertainty and ignorance surround me and leave me feeling light headed. i no longer know what to do with myself.. the only thing i can do is take a day at a time and see if it just dawns on me. maybe one day I'll wake up and finally find the key to you, to your inside, to the things you decide to hide, things that you cant disguise, but that never the less.. you choose to keep aside. I'm here now trying to find the missing piece to you, or maybe I'm trying to find the missing piece of me in you.
i just try to identify what parts of me you make more alive, what about me captivates you the way you say.. what do i have that makes you want to stay? its just surprising that after all this time, the secret was in letting out what i was trying to hide. i used to hide my every desire, any wish any malfunction. today I'm different, entirely exposed.. no longer my feelings forgotten in repose. I'm honest about you.. i reveal the core, of every idea.. of every sore.
constantly i find myself trying to mold you into something more malleable, and remind myself that there's no need.. if i changed you, you wouldn't be what you are to me. i feel like I've said nothing, and at the same time said so much. i feel like with these words, you can my emotions touch. i would like to discover an unclaimed way.. to show the fusion between what i feel and what i say.
I've tried to even it out, tried to think of things in a clear state of mind.. but everything always ends up blurred. clouds of uncertainty and ignorance surround me and leave me feeling light headed. i no longer know what to do with myself.. the only thing i can do is take a day at a time and see if it just dawns on me. maybe one day I'll wake up and finally find the key to you, to your inside, to the things you decide to hide, things that you cant disguise, but that never the less.. you choose to keep aside. I'm here now trying to find the missing piece to you, or maybe I'm trying to find the missing piece of me in you.
i just try to identify what parts of me you make more alive, what about me captivates you the way you say.. what do i have that makes you want to stay? its just surprising that after all this time, the secret was in letting out what i was trying to hide. i used to hide my every desire, any wish any malfunction. today I'm different, entirely exposed.. no longer my feelings forgotten in repose. I'm honest about you.. i reveal the core, of every idea.. of every sore.
constantly i find myself trying to mold you into something more malleable, and remind myself that there's no need.. if i changed you, you wouldn't be what you are to me. i feel like I've said nothing, and at the same time said so much. i feel like with these words, you can my emotions touch. i would like to discover an unclaimed way.. to show the fusion between what i feel and what i say.
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