life times apart.

"The reason it hurts so much to separate is because our souls are connected. Maybe they always have been and will be. Maybe we've lived a thousand lives before this one and in each of them we've found each other. And maybe each time, we've been forced apart for the same reasons. That means that this good-bye is both a good-bye for the past then thousand years and a prelude to what will come.

When i look at you, I see your beauty and grace and know they have grown stronger with every life you have lived. And I know I have spent every life before this one searching for you. Not someone like you, but you, for your soul and mine must always come together. And then, for a reason neither of us understands, we've been forced to say good-bye.

I would love to tell you that everything will work out for us, and I primose to do all I can to make sure it does. But if we never meet again and this is truly good-bye, I know we will see each other again in another life. We will find each other again, and maybe the stars will have changed, and we will not only love each other in that time, but for all the times we've had before. " [...]

Nicholas Sparks

eloquent subconscious

Against all odds, against all logic, against anything and everything sane.. i'm here. Longing a sole moment that would permit me a caress from your hand, a stare not disguised in commonness. You.. my only reason to get up in the morning, to go to work, to complete my day.. to expect the best from everything I do.. to know that everything will only get better with time. you've peeled the scarred layer that covers this organ that beats inside my chest.. what used to be only a mere indecipherable linger of a heart beat today echoes as a scream of glorious thumping inside my chest.. everytime you come near.. everytime I notice the gleam in your eye.. the shimmer in your smile.. the warmth from your heart. From wanting absolutely nothing I've grown to want everything.. I want everything.. and everything being a synonym for you.

Will I be able to have everything? You promise me I will. You offer me a promise of time on a silver platter, I accept. I wait here as days pass by.. longing for time to be over, expecting the wait to grow shorter. Waiting for colors to become more vivid because I see them through your eyes. time my only ally, but my most apt enemy. The only elixir that continues this paradox, giving me the strength to stand by you.. waiting.. expecting.. needing.. wanting.. longing anything that initially was once part of you. Could I ask you to absorb me? To make me part of you.. cover me with your scent and your eyes.

Cover me with the extense sheet of the things you say.. the things that come out your pores.. things that only we can understand.. things that I need to breathe. My insides apologize for their lack of eloquence. I'm sorry for not saying what you need to hear, im sorry for not expressing sentiments that can only be manifested with actions. Let me learn in this bubble that we're in .. teach me to say things that burn me from with in. Be patient for I will learn.. and I will say things that will over power you.. things that will plow your defenses and doubts.

Don't guard yourself from me.. make vulnerability make you free.. turn to me.

e.a.v.m

lips of an angel.

Honey why you callin me so late
It's kinda hard to talk right now
Honey why you cryin
Is everything ok
I gotta whisper cause I can't be too loud

Well my girls in the next room
Sometimes I wish she was you
I guess we never really moved on

It's really good to hear your voice
Sayin my name
It sounds so sweet
Comin from the lips of an angel
Hearin those words
It makes me weak

And I
Never want to say goodbye
But girl you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel

It's funny that you're callin me tonight
And yes I dreamt of you too
Does he know your talkin' to me?
Will it start a fight?
No, I don't think she has a clue

Well, my girls in the next room
Sometimes I wish she was you
I guess we never really moved on

It's really good to hear your voice
Sayin my name
It sounds so sweet
Comin from the lips of an angel
Hearin those words
It makes me weak

And I
Never want to say goodbye
But girl you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel

It's really good to hear your voice
Sayin my name it sounds so sweet
Comin from the lips of an angel
Hearin those words
It makes me weak

And I
Never want to say goodbye
But girl you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel

Never want to say goodbye
But girl you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel

Honey why you callin me so late?