always

i think i'm screaming so loudly sound has failed me. brains all around me have ordered eyes to not perceive me; i'm right here.. but not existent to all. i've forgotten days before this one, this day seems exactly like the last.. i am living a day within a day.. a cycle of non-change that haunts me. the dreams within my nightmare are the only ones that keep me insane enough to continue a routine that becomes me.

lend a hand to my undisclosed circle.. let me see beyond it's radius, show me a different light. i'm waiting for fingers to point me in the direction of what used to be my everyday. i've yet to find something that will make me different, that will take me back to where i never was.

you're a mystery to me, and i don't know when you'll come nor how long i'll have to wait for your breath.. but oblivious to reality.. i long. noise becomes a melody in the background of my life in a day.. i'm searching. the word that will make me whole again. i don't ask for eternity, only a few moments that might bring me sleep.